don’t get so mad that not everybody is as aware of certain social issues as you would like them to be or you will be very mad all of the time.
things im very afraid of happening right now.
i wont be able to do anything other than minimum/low wage jobs for the rest of my life.
rebecca will leave me for somebody better.
i don’t do well at my summer camp job and they shout at me or throw me out.
i argue with my family.
something bad happens to me and rebecca doesn’t know because she’s so far away.
something bad happens to rebecca and i don’t know because i’m so far away.
i don’t make any new friends and stay cripplingly lonely for a long time.
thats all i think.
im really scared rebecca is going to go to college and meet a nice boy like me only cleverer and more motivated and not thousands of miles away. really really scared.


